So here you go, another rant… I’m a man… yet I love complaining… then again, I think all human beings love complaining… It’s a matter of wanting to talk… and have someone to listen to… it’s a method of shall I say STRESS RELIEF… because apparently stress could kill. Before I go completely off topic, I really want to talk about this…
This is me, Ben, mua, myself… a few months ago…
This is me, Ben, mua with Miss Universe Malaysia 2010 Finalists… today… (not necessarily related)
The difference?
82kgs to 65kgs – that’s about 17 kgs in about 3-4 months.
You know something is wrong when your Grandma’s friends give you nick names
You see, this all started when one day I got sick and tired of people calling me fat. My grandma’s friends described me as the ‘fei fei bak bak’ boy on the billboard… translated, it means – WHITE WHITE FAT FAT – literally calling me a pig. Okay, it’s not like I have anything against swine… or pig… or cute pink thing or whatever you’d like to call it…
It was everyone, my family, my friends…
So I visited the in-house doctor and she claimed I was 7kgs overweight. So sure, I went on it… all gungho… high and mighty, I went on a diet that would bring my weight down by 21%. It wasn’t much really, proper eating, eating at scheduled times and a couple of remedies here and there. It worked… VERY WELL. Thank you doc!
The journey wasn’t easy…
All I can say is it wasn’t easy. I didn’t torture myself but being a BIG eater, I had to REALLY watch the food I eat. The weight went down… down… down… and finally I’m at one point where my body just doesn’t lose no more – 65kgs+-.
Ben… you’re too skinny lar!
Okay, now that I’m satisfied with the ‘accomplishment’ – things are now turning the other way around… “Ben, you’re too skinny lar”… “Ben, put on some weight”… “Ben, it looks like your head is bigger than your body lar”… WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE??? Too fat… tak boleh, too skinny, tak boleh…
Frustration…
I kill frustration with food… gadgets… things that make me feel good. So after all those comments, I decided to binge tonight… and I ATE.
a massive bowl of rice…
whole load of Korean appetizers
an order of BBQ chicken…
Screw the diet… LIVE LIFE… EAT EAT EAT EAT… forget the schedule… forget the no carb in the evening thingy… (might regret later) but hey… I’m happy (for now)
In short…
Look, I think it’s not easy to satisfy everyone. To begin with, why are we satisfying anyone? Question is AM I HAPPY? YES I AM. I freaking am. I have discovered the art of eating that helps me keep the weight off and enjoy life at the same time. I ‘think’ I look better in photos… I feel good when I can wear smaller clothes… I feel great when I don’t feel tired easily… don’t these things point towards a positive direction?
As long as I’m not doing anything that’s detrimental to my health… and trust me, I love myself… I’m kiasu that way – I’m fine.
But it is TRUE that you’re too skinny now! Haha. Face it dude!
Ben, you’re an inspiration already as it is to lose that amount of weight in so little time.
The thing is, my story is exactly like yours and really, it’s completely the same with the family and the names and the looks they give. Only difference was I was about 90kgs and I took a much longer time to lose to where I am, 66kg.
Like you ever since, people kept telling me I’m way too skinny and that I need to put on more weight and stuff like that. The problem is I love myself the way I am and the accomplishment I’ve achieved.
So I’m saying, screw them, Ben. Forget about what others think or say. I’m telling you as much as i’m telling myself. Everyone should be allowed to look the way they want to. So I say, binge all you want tonight and get back up on the treadmill tomorrow!
A toast to health! Haha!
P.S: I was just amazed by how similar your story was to mine. Congrats on the weight loss though.
Satisfy everyone and you satisfy no one.
Better satisfy yourself.
Your rice looks yummy. Can satisfy me? Haha..
hey… i have the same problem. i used to be quite chubby but i am slimmer now. but i still think i …erm… have some excessive fat. lots of my mum’s friends and my relatives say i am too skinny and i should eat! however, to me, just nice or too skinny is still better than the chubby me back then.